Seems, in reviewing past history here, that I’m in need of
at least one “Christmas-related” entry, to keep the multi-year streak
alive.
Thoughts at Christmas,
2012.
We’re not sure our daughter believes in Santa.
She's only five years old.
I remember lying awake in a bedroom I shared with my brother
in the farmhouse my family was renting at the time, when I was five. It was Christmas eve, and at one point in
the night, we SWORE we heard sleigh bells.
But like with most kids, by the time the folks made it
official, we were ready to accept it as gospel.
The logistics of the operation simply made it too much to accept.
Back to my daughter:
She doesn’t get excited about Santa, doesn’t ask a lot of questions
about him.
“Do you want to watch this Christmas cartoon?”
“No thanks, how
about a Wild Kratts?”
Maybe this has as much to do with the fact that Rankin Bass
made really… bad cartoons, as it is an issue of Santa belief.
(See old post, highlighting top 5 holiday tv shows. No I’m serious. Go find it, read it, and come
back. Now! I’m going to count to five…)
I’m quite sure that
if there is doubt, the fact that she’s
seen him in 4 different places in the last 10 days, and he tends to look quite
different each time, doesn’t help.
“If he’s Santa, and is getting ready for Christmas, why is
he posing for photos in my gym?” she may be thinking to herself. And at the zoo, and in a parking lot at the
village community center, and at a freakin’ pancake breakfast….
And likely at another pancake breakfast, this coming
weekend. (Yay pancakes!)
He’s freakin’ everywhere.
Can’t believe we actually stood in line and spent money to get
pictures taken with him at the mall, in 2010.
But if she isn’t
buying it, she’s not saying so, and how do you broach the subject with your
child?
So, hon – you believe in Santa or what?
Of
course I do, daddy. Why do you ask?
Oh… uh… no reason. Have
a cookie.
Which leads to a serious issue: If you’re not active in a church, and Santa’s
not a big deal, what do you do to instill a sense of wonder and magic in your five year old, for Christmas?
This has been weighing heavily on me the last couple of
weeks, as I don’t want it to be simply about receiving presents.
And at what age can you hope to get her to understand why it’s better to give than to receive; why
the story of Scrooge is so meaningful?
Confession: I struggle with getting excited about Christmas, every year.
You dedicate so much time and effort
into the gearing up for it, preparing for it, shopping, decorating..What are we gonna cook on Christmas eve, what are we gonna cook for our dinner on Christmas
day; did we make sure that all the kids on the list got equal treatment; can we
finally remove ____ from our extended gifting list, as we didn’t get anything
from them last year… blah blah blah…..
Jesus.
And while I write this, I know we behave this way because we DO care about
each other; we do love the kids on our list, we DO want to instill a sense of
importance and relevancy to the day…
And I approach Christmas
for myself with no expectations, yet still manage to frequently feel a sense of
disappointment, which is stupid, and all
on me, and I know it, but… there it is.
And I really don’t want my daughter, who’s already happy and
full of imagination and wonder and whimsy, to grow up feeling the same way.
Not on my watch, anyhow.
